I keep a detailed moleskine which documents my life. I seem unable to journal like a regular person and so it has become a hodge-podge of writing, drawings and poetry. Frida often makes cameos.
This is my entry describing my recently deceased Papa. I miss him and was unable to attend the funeral, so I did some cathartic moleskinning. The next page was a stress induced drawing because I was anxious about being the Girl's Camp director in my ward. I often like to doodle out my anxiety.
This entry documents the family road trip saga to Utah in which we all got the stomach flu. I believe my personal vomit count was up to 15 before the trip was over. Before the nasty flu incident, the trip was lovely-- we had a condo in Park City, arrived a Mount Rushmore right as they turned off the lights (they were on when we parked but by the time we walked up there it was hardly visible), and it was also the last time I got to see my Papa. I got to see him on his last lucid day and say goodbye, which was amazingly lucky, but very sad. I am just grateful that he did not have to suffer long.
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Hi Hannah! I just LOVE your moleskine 'journal'! It is so cool! What, exactly, is a moleskine notebook? And where does one aquire one?
Anyhoo, I can't believe you got wrangled into YW camp DIRECTOR!! That's a pretty intensive calling. But I bet you were awesome and I'm totally jealous that the girls got YOU as a camp director (I had a real meanie for two of my camp years)!
Oh, and be sure to check out my blog! (you can find the link to it on Chelsea's.
moleskines are black leather notebooks-- I use them all the time-- they are expensive but totally worth it-- you can get them at barnes&noble
hannah - i love this whole therapuetic moleskin journal thing. your entry about your papa was very moving - especially the bird being freed from a cage. thank you for sharing.
i just discovered your blog. i look forward to coming back. good luck with the whole purging thing. i'm a packrat too (although my stuff isn't half as cool as that venice cereal box thing) and am trying to purge more myself. i think of that scene from spirited away where she pulls something out of the older spirit and then all this garbage just comes out of the spirit and it is free. i do feel like my stuff holds me down and i will feel freer without it, but parting can be such sweet sorrow too.
p.s. that picture of you is beautiful. i just saved it in our pics.
oh, and i forget to say how sorry i was that you couldn't make the funeral too. we missed you (especially when we had to sing). hope you've gotten a transcript - there were some wonderful things said about your grandpa. i can send you pat's talk if you would like.
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