Saturday, May 15, 2010

this just seems like alot of work





Congratulations to me, the semester is over and done with....not without some blood, sweat, and plenty of tears though. The semester brought some unexpected and unwanted events, but also alot of growing opportunities. I got released from being the gospel doctrine teacher...but now I am a counselor in the Relief Society presidency...guess that means I have to stay awake during relief society...haha. I took a spin class this semester, and actually enjoyed it...although the instructor was the most gosh awful chipper person I have ever met...like she had sunshine coming out of her bottom...which was mega irritating early in the morning (along with the horrible country music she would make us listen to). I ended the semester in drawing with a series of obnoxiously large charcoal drawings of things like slugs and bananas....interesting to say the least; and in painting I finished with a very rushed series of bird paintings.

On a less positive note, I have been going to therapy (both group and individual) and am being treated for an eating disorder...not the funnest way to start out your summer.
But hopefully this will be just what I need to get me feeling tip-top so I will be able to go back to Virginia in the fall. And I would also be remiss not to mention the generosity of my mother for giving me a nook-work area in her studio. Thanks mom! (And she let me tag along to her blog get-together and I got to meet one of my fiber heroes Mimi Kirchner)

All in all I am feeling that in these crappy times... it can really only get better from now on, because if I haven't hit bottom this year, I don't want to go any further in the wrong direction. I am ready to move forward and stop being controlled by my problems.

3 comments:

susan m hinckley said...

I think I read on Amanda's blog once something about "living your life instead of letting your life live you" -- an idea I really liked and one that I think you might like as well. Letting your problems make your decisions for you feels hopeless and exhausting. And you are so, so much more than the sum of your problems, my sweet!

Welcome to the studio! I hope it can be a feel-good place for you.

Amelia Poll said...

Miss Hannah - you are so amazing. I am happy you updated, but sorry that you are going through some seriously difficult times. But, I am so glad to hear that you are on the road to getting better.

I am loving your birds. I think they are really fun. I love you, girl. Good luck. I'm praying for you :)

Chelsea said...

you're my hero.